I haven't been blogging since quite some time

Just last week I saw a girl i had a crush on 3 yrs ago. Ohh my she's gorgeous... sigh... and my heart began racing like watching liverpool in penalty shootouts. ah well i thought i have moved on after these years seems like i haven.. =(

Day No. 6

Have been a little bit short tempered and impatient these days. Don't know why. Maybe it's work as there have been too many accidents happening as of late and I am not really happy with how the company views this. Ah well. Somemore now I have smsed Pigmel less. One less person to talk to.

KL trip was not so great as there were nothing much to see there only for shoppings and the shops there argh. The shopping queens who went with us just took 1 hr to walk ard and got nothing. Ah well.. Have told Piggy that I like her and that's just that. I must say that when i told her this i just want to let her know about it. Didn't have any hope or agenda. Now I just want to get over it and move on. Hope it won't take me very long.

Have been thinking about what happened in the past few months. Stressful moments and happy ones. Realised that I was happier when I was able to talk to her on the phone, sms her daily and even looking at her during her haircut hah! It may seem nothing to her but was really glad to be able to take care of a person that I liked when she's not feeling well. Ah well.. Think won't have much chance to do the same for her again I suppose. As what the Army always say - suck it up and move on.

Tree will always be there for leaf if she needs him and no matter where wind brings her to.

Slowly Recovering.

Had a chat with David on Thursday. Now I looking for a change in job. We chat about jobs, our dream and the possibility of us working together. Feeling much better now as in I am not so vexed and I have reorientated my focus. However, I still think of her a lot. And with the help of my dear, I now know how to deal with this prb and I now know what to do next. Thanks dear and Bro.

Met her whole day today. Initially i thought htat i would meet her just to go temple and a quick lunch but in the end, ended up shopping with her friend.

Sweet Memories

Sometimes I can't help but recall back my times with her. Mr B asked me to format my memory already and forget about what had happen. but I didn't want to cos it was a happy one.

3 days on....

Went back to work on Monday with a grave mood. Hoping to find 007 to talk to and su ku. Sigh too bad she's on a 2 day MC for food poisoning. So have to carry on working.

Life's pretty aimless now. Every week I have always been looking forward to meet Piggy for meals and listen to her complain about work, sister and what nots. Sigh.. Now have nothing to look forward to and asking her out for dinners will be a bit difficult.

Dont know how long this will last but I sure hope I will get over it soon. The sooner, the better. I still hope that one day I can tell her that how important she is to me.

Frog Alone - Game Over

Let it go ba.. Let it be free flowing.

But I still like her.. I will be there for her whatever happens.

I am Speechless.

Piggy's Bday

19/11 was a disastrous day. Met on her birthday and had a meal. I think this might be the last time i meeting her for dinner or something le. Sigh. Such lousy planner I am.

I am really terrible at talking, esp to people I am interested in. Ask me to talk to my workmates, I am ok with that. I can rattle on and on and on. But in front of her i just become mute. Ah well.

And talking on the phone? I think that I wil fail horrendously. If there were to be a grading system on that. I probably think i will score a big fat zero. I cannot sustain a conversation on the phone for more than 5 mins before. It's just book appointments, making arrangements and what nots. I've been trying to talk to her on the phone but sigh.. dont know why my mind just went blank.

Sigh Such a failure I am..