sometimes I really think that life is really a joke (or at least to me). Things are sure to happen when you are the busiest.

It's been a tough holidays for me. While everybody is working for the allowance, enjoying their holidays overseas, sleeping to their hearts content etc, etc. I have to go back to school as early as 9 am and go back to my hall at ard 9 pm earliest, just for my experiment to run and complete my results. Kill ME!!!! But I brought this upon myself cos i decided to rush the project over the holidays so that i can finish off with what i need to do and concentrate on my schoolwork and report writing during school term. What's more the experiment just takes too much time to set up(filling and draining the tank and calibration) while the actual run is just like a few minutes.

I am starting to consider that taking intersem is the biggest mistake here. I totally have no time to study for the exam which is like on the 13th of june. And my prep for my presentations and negotiations last time was like crap but i am lucky to have quite good group members who are quite zai with their presentations.

To make things worse my dad is now in the hospital, I am not trying to play the blame game now or what, but it's kind of sudden for me. First, he felt tired and feverish, then his body turned yellow and in the end the doctor said that he should go into the hospital for recuperation as they say he's overworked. I just hoped I will have more time for me. And I feel useless at times as I dont know what I can do to help. It's good to see him looking better as days goes by, the tired factor is slowly diminishing.

And my mum and sis started to believe in those grandmother stories by asking my dad drink this and that without knowing what they let him drink will cause and mixing and matching. BAH!! The cases they hear is INDIVIDUAL drinks not ALL AT THE SAME TIME!!! Who knows what synergism effect can these things cause. I did tell my mum and she just tell me 'Dont you want daddy to be well?'.. WA LAU.. HE'S MY DAD!!! OF COS I WANT HIM TO RECOVER QUICK!! Or maybe that's just the curse of being a science students. Thinking too much about scientific facts of things. Sigh.. Just hope dad will be well.

Sigh... I've been running ard - to the hospital, school lab and temple and trying to find time to read up on the literature of my project and my examination notes. Hope everything will be better in 2 weeks time at most and my dad get discharged soon. Now i have a stiff neck, think my bed is calling me already.

End of whining.

Hydraulics Lab is now my second home.. If you cannot find me at home or hall.. Can try look for me there.. haha

Summary of the first 2 weeks of my holidays (is there any holidays for me?).

Basically my intersem started immediately after my examinations. Fun but it is quite taxing for me and some of my coursemates who finished the exams the same time as me. We took up negotiating classes as our business and management PE. It's an interesting subject but can be rather tiring. After class i still have to go back to my lab to do my experiments for my FYP. And guess what? The equipment spoilt in my face again. Sigh.. How many times must they spoil before letting me do my experiment in peace?! DUH... As what my professors would say to their research students who ignorantly things everything is so ideal and wont spoil until they finish their projects, 'Welcome to research.'

Anyway, back to my PE. The course was interesting and the lecturer was really funny. She never hesitates to poke fun of pple and herself which lightens the whole atmophere. And trust me, she really has a LOUD laugh.

What is negotiation without actualy practice right? As part of our assessment, we are required to do a panel presentation and a negotiation role play. We chose gender discrimination as our presentation and negotiation for IR between the company and an imaginary government as our role play. The negotiation and presentation became like an impromtu for us as we didn't have much time to search for information and sort them out. So we just picked out some critical webbies and use our own experience with the 2 issues to present. Fortunately, it turned out quite well for everybody. That's about it for the negotiation class.

As for my project, it's a total nightmare. The equipment have a tendency of spoiling in the middle of experiments and always have to delay the whole process to get it fixed and after we get it back the values we did before have to be taken out and REDO everything from scratch. Sigh.. and the equipment are not cheap.. Just the laser already cost a bomb (approx. $120 000) sigh.. and we still have cameras blah blah blah just hope that wont spoil again.

Just discussed with the PhD student about our project, apparently, our deadlines have been pushed backwards to 1st of July for the analysis and getting of results. So between monday and 1st july, there will be endless nights and burnt weekends all dedicated to my dear project. sigh.. I think it's a give and take la.. sacrifice now and towards the end of the project i just have to focus on my report writing and shake my legs.. lol..

CV 4000 Engineers and Society

The school never fail to give surprises for our final paper. It's totally on history of Singapore and who invented what. The best thing is, the whole paper tested on EVERYTHING that is being taught in the lecture. Therefore, spotting is no use. The questions can run from part a - d, with every part from different chapters of the notes. Grrr! I hate history...

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The other day, I was out with some of my close friends i knew in university. They did an analysis on my.. All of them concluded that the type of girls I like are fierce.. blah blah blah... then they added if the girl is not fierce, I will not like... -_-"... !!!!! And one of my 'sis' who knew that all along claims that I am 皮痒 and 欠骂. That's why.. -_-'

Exhausted.

I am extremely exhausted. Everytime i pick up my notes to start reading, the 'back diffusion' phenomena occurs again. This time worse, this phenomenon comes with a good pal of his -headache. Sigh... Why can't I have super memory like some of my friends where they can memorise the whole stack of notes with so much ease. Sigh... The usual after-exams package coming to visit me again.. They just refuse to leave me alone - making the first few weeks of my holidays a disaster.

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With the Yr 4s graduating soon, they are all looking desperately for jobs now. Sigh.. It seems that the environmental market is soooo small in Singapore. Hope that this will be better soon.

Sometimes i wonder if my results will land me an engineering job. Maybe will try chemical engineering company when I graduate, issue challenges to the elite haha.. I reckon the demand for environmental engineers will be up soon looking at the global awareness of pollution and ISO 14000. Hope I can go overseas haha.. No prize for guessing which country i hope to be in though.

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CV 4000 - Engineer and Society

Last paper for the the exams which is tomorrow. This is a very tough subject. And I mean tough because we dont know what the lecturers will be focussing and the things they cover is all over the place. Sigh.. A bit here and a bit there. Basically it's just history lessons for the yr 4s. MY GOD!! I haven't passed since I dont know when. Throughout my secondary school life, I failed all (and I mean ALL) of my history exams and tests. Ironically, They still let me take history in sec 3 and 4 despite failing in in sec 1 and 2. Lucky for me, I passed the bloody 'O' Level Examination with a C.. Phew.

Think tomorrow just smoke through the paper. sigh...

Bumped into my Biotech lecturer just now. I asked about how we fared in general as a class for the papers. Sigh.. After listening to him, I xian 3/4 already.. but i think this we wont fail la.. Confirm, guarantee + chop. haha...

EN 4554 - Air pollution Control

This paper was super easy. I dont fancy an A though.. Because others might think it's easy also and do much better without any careless mistakes.